Wednesday, December 30, 2009

:: NY @ Bukit Bintang ::

Salam to all my readers

well, this is the second try poasting a video entry, hope you guys are gonna like it. sorry kalo nampak kusut masai coz i just rolled out of bed. that explain the lousy way of speaking. hehe. =)

but whatever it is, i just wanna wish you guys a Happy New Year 2010. hope the sun will shine brighter this coming new year.

Thursday, December 24, 2009

:: Santa Is Coming To Town ::

Salam to all my readers

well, hope you guys enjoy my first debut video, khas sempena Christmas, which is around the corner. do leave your comment, your thoughts about my vlog (bak kata Atok) and any suggestion utk memantapkan lagi blog aku yg tak seberapa ni.

ok la, until then, enjoy your holiday!

p/s ~ credit to background music, Jingle Bell by Boney M and We Wish You A Merry Christmas by T.I.V.C.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

:: and the winner is.. ::

Salam to all my reader

wow, finally it's all come down this finale of X-Factor 2009. Joe McElderry, Stacey Solomon and Olly Murs. i've watched all the performances via YouTube and the best part was when the host announces the winner of the singing competition. yes, it was Joe McElderry! yay!

~ the amazing Joe McElderry ~

~ l-r ; Lloyd Daniels, Ricky Loney, Cheryl Cole (mentor) and Joe McElderry ~

at first, i thought it's gonna be Olly Murs but thank god he didn't make it. he's undoubtly one of the best singer in the competition but i think the viewers knows who's best to win. he's finale single, The Climb, which Miley Cyrus made popular, sure gonna sell like hot cakes.

if you wanna find out more on this amazing guy, just click here. you can also download his videos performances, his interview backstage and his weekly diary. kalo nak senang lg, pgi je YouTube. hehehe.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

:: black & white photo contest ::

Salam to all my readers

this is the second time i join contest that are organized by bloggers. the first contest was from Primadona69. ok, basically, this contest required me to upload a pic of mine in black and white. i dunno how she gonna judge all the pics but i actually feel like i'm in America's Next Top Model, you know, the part where the judges deliberate about the models' pics, before Tyra announces the eliminated model. haha.

so, here the pic that i'm gonna use for the contest. it was taken not too long ago, obviously it was at Putrajaya and it was taken by me friend (do i sound like Joe McElderry?? haha), WanZai. credit to him. i hope this pic will make it to the final (hahaha). finger cross!!

owh, almost forget. Ezzan Yusop is the one who organized this contest. ohh, and she's a girl. haha. i thought she was a man, so i addressed her as 'bro'. this contest ends on 31 Dec 2009.

Saturday, December 12, 2009

:: i drink a beer?? ::

Salam to all my readers

i dunno what was happening to me last night. first, my glasses broke. it felt on the floor in my bathroom. thank god satu cermin je pecah. so, as i'm typing this entry, my eyes are a bit blur bcoz aku hanya guna satu cermin shj. so, pandangan belah kanan ok, pandangan belah kiri, blur. huhuhu. but it really starts giving me headache.

second, i had this dream. i dunno what's the sign but it really a crazy dream and obviously i wouldn't dare to do what i did in my dream, in my real life. my dream was actually me, drinking beer or alcohol. its a but scary and funny bcoz it scary when it comes to think that, i was drinking a beer, you know, i'm Islam and would never ever gonna drink that kind of beverage. and i'm actually taste it, like it was real. seriously, i taste it. i dunno how to describe the taste but it was aweful and very sweet.

and the funny part of my dream was one of the characters is Afdlin Shauki! it's weird coz how would Afdlin be in my dream? its like i was thinking of him and he ended up played a role in my dream. aku still ingat kata2 Afdlin, dia cakap "ko taw ko da buat dosa besar, dosa besar!". muka dia mmg serius time tuh. but why this dream? is it giving me some kind of sign or something? i asked my mum just now and she was surprised, but she said that it's all mainan tido. don't think about it too much.

unlike my previous dream which i still can remember the storyline, this time, it was chaos. the storyline was blurry and its like a mixture of something. i try to remember the whole thing but my mind was stuck at the drinking part.

i just, dunno..

Thursday, December 10, 2009

:: what a stupid people! ::

Salam to all my readers

just now, there were 1 group of men, 4 all of them. they were talking in front of my house, ok, well, nothing weird about that. later on, their conversation getting louder and i thought i heard a loud sound like a heavy thing fall on the ground. rupa-rupanya, dowg tu tgh gadoh. aku yg tgh YM ngn member pn tersentap (ok, to find more info about tersentap, click here).

lahabau r punye org. nak gadoh depan2 umah aku. at first, i thought they were going to trash talk aje. then, sorg mamat ni sepak motor member dia neh. dah tu, mula la sorg tu angkat topi keledar nak hempuk mamat yg sepak motor dia tuh. but thing started to get funny when the man who kicked the bike, lari plak bila member dia nak hempuk ngn keledar. dah taw nak gadoh lari plak. ingatkan nak lawan ke ape ke. dpt gak la aku tgk free show kejap.

mamat yg lagi 2 org tu konon2 cm baik r, cuba nak leraikan dowg tuh. the man who kicked the bike now nowhere to be seen. he ran away, afraid of getting into a fight while the other members trying to calm the guy who wanted to hit his friend. i just sneeking from the gap of my window inside my room, waiting to see the next action. ohh, so not cool. they took their bikes, started the engine and went after the oh-i-wanna-start-a-fight-then-i-change-my-mind guy.

but looking at the bright side, ada la jugak something yg tarik perhatian aku di kala aku keboringan. huh. petang2 cni wat aku mengantuk plak. moral of the story, if your friend wanna hit you, just run away. ahahahaha!

oh, so damn boring!

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

:: wtf! i love the hair-do! ::

Salam to all my readers

you know what, Allah cipta kita manusia neh, muka, personaliti kita sume, dah elok dah. what i'm trying to say is, no need to get boobs job done or any other cosmetic surgery. dah la mahal. bleh mati pn ada. well, kalo yg suntik collagen ke, vitamin ke, no comment. but i think no need la, just take care of yourself traditional way. better right. with all the herbs and other supplement that we need, to slowdown the ageing problem.

ohhh, i really wish that it was me who said something nice like above. but the truth is, arghhhh, i'm the one who feel that stupid, shitty feeling. you know, the feeling when you look at someone who got great hair-do, nice clothes, macho or good-looking face, well toned body, that kind of feeling. i know i sound totally lame and wierd pn ada gak but that's the fact that i can't avoid. man, it's killing me slowly.

i always went like, "ohh my, what a great hair", "wtf, i love that jeans", "jeles gler tgk baju dia" and lot lot lot of crappy things i said when i look at someone who got those things. it's not like i'm grateful for what i have, we're human right, so, it can't be avoided. org cakap, kalo nak rasa bersyukur, tgk lah pada mereka yg kurang berkemampuan dari kita, mereka2 yg kurang upaya. if we compare to people who are wayyyy better than ourselves, you'll never find that grateful feeling.

~ motif letak pic ni?? ~

the great things to people who are very good looking, rich and intelligent, these people will not find it hard to live. for examples, kalo nak berkawankan, of coz, ramai yg nak berkenalan. tak payah susah2 nak introduce theirselves la, tersengeh2 nak berkawan ngn org la. my theory also can be applied in love. kalo ko smart, damn handsome, bijak, ko tggu je, for sure akan ada la yg dtg menyapa. selain perilaku yg baik, having those characteristics in you really gonna help you out. same goes to women.

~ he's one of the good-looking guy that i like to see. look at his hair and his body ~

but up until now, i'm very grateful of what i am. of coz ada certain things yg nak kena touch up sket, cthnye, body nak kena tambah muscle sket, muka nak kena jaga, lose some weight. hey, if guys find it poyo for me to say like this, say what you want coz i'm not embarrass to admit it. it'd be great if someone walk pass you, and turn their head back on you. haha. what a accomplishment. if i manage to get a muscular body, no need to find changing room whenever i go for shopping. you have it, flaunt it. hahaha. dang it i sound stupid!

but, whatever it is, i still feel great being me. like i said earlier, Allah cipta semua manusia tu sama shj. sume ada baik buruknya stp kejadian. last but not least, to Najmie, not all good-looking guys are gay. hahaha!!

p/s ~ video klip Taylor Swift - You Belong With Me, damn, they're cute together!!!

Saturday, December 5, 2009

:: to laugh or to cry?? ::

Salam to all my reader

when i first saw the cover album of the runner-up of American Idol 8, Adam Lambert, i gasped and i thought it was a joke, or at least an unofficial cover of his album. but it turns out that the cover is really the official one and i don't know whether to laugh, to cry or to amaze. apparently, Adam wasn't kidding when he once told press in US that his debut album would sound "as if a '70s time-capsule blasted off into space and you're watching it through a holographic filter" coz For Your Entertainment is gonna look and sound like it.

~ Adam Lambert cover album ~

some say that the cover look very much like him, you know, the glamrock thing plus the eye liner and they would really like this cover. while the other say that this is the worst cover ever done by the Idol alum and they would be embarrassed to carry this cover up to the cash register. if you guys ask me, hmmm, apart of me love it and the other part just can't accept it. but who cares about the cover seriously, if the songs are all good, then why not to love it, right?? well, here are the tracks :
  1. Music Again
  2. For Your Entertainment
  3. Whataya Want From Me
  4. Strut
  5. Soaked
  6. Sure Fire Winners
  7. A Loaded Smile
  8. If I Had You
  9. Pick You Up
  10. Fever
  11. Sleepwalker
  12. Aftermath
  13. Broken Opens
  14. Time For Miracles (2012 OST)
i already watched he performed the For Your Entertainment song at American Music Awards 2009 and to me, it was a flawless and amazing performance and i thought he did a wonderful job. i'm don't know much about music but that's all i've got to say about that. althought there was a slight controversy regarding the man-to-man kissing but that doesn't seem bother the fans. check out his performance by clicking here.

owh, btw, i'm so frustrated that David Archuleta didn't make it into the Best New Artist category in Grammy Award this year but the other david did. i mean David Cook of course and i hope he's gonna win.

~ both of them are great! ~

p/s ~ Christmast is getting closer..

Thursday, December 3, 2009

:: a walk into hell ::

Salam to all my readers

i just watched I Shouldn't Be Alive at Discovery Channel. The program told the stories of ordinary people who face incredible circumstances. The subjects of the show narrate their life-threatening experiences while actors re-enact their experiences. basically it's about a story of people who survived a life-threatening tragedy. i really love this program coz it explores the very best true stories of survival, focusing on the moral dilemmas, crucial moments, chance events and life-or-death decisions of the survivors. i feel like it is me who are on the tv, making the very crucial and important decision of my life, like "what would i've done to survive?"

the episode that i watched is called A Walk Into Hell. it's about a group of five teenage scouts and three adult guides hike into the Grand Canyon during a heat wave. As their water runs out and the older members collapse in exhaustion, three of the teenagers must set out on their own to reach the Colorado River. it was such an amazing journey to see the three teenagers trying their very best to survive and in order to go to the river to get some water. the responsible on their shoulders are big, as they also have to bring back some water to their older members who are unable to walk.

~ the view of Grand Canyon ~

get some thoughts about this. if you guys are stuck at the grand canyon, or anywhere in a situation where you run out of water and the heat is unbearable, what will you do to survive? it requires a lot of knowledge to know exactly what to do when you're in that kind of situation. 3 remaja ni they support each other and dowg tlg menolong la. ada satu scene ni masa salah sorg drp mereka ni abes air. so, kwn dia ni bg la air dia, yg mmg dah tggl sikit. air yg sikit pn still bleh share. amazing btol. i'm so touched.

~ Colorado River at Grand Canyon ~

then saat genting ble sorg drp mereka rebah. da tak mampu nak berjalan. mata hitam dia masuk ke dalam, nafas tersekat2. tanda2 dehydration yg terlampau. his 2 friends tried to talk to him, he could hear, but couldn't talk. so, one of them decide to go get some water from the river, which happen to be near them, and pour it on his friend's body. still, air tak mencukupi. yg sorg lg plak g amik air. nasib baik time tuh, sekumpulan penyelamat tiba but it was too late. the boy died, living his friends crying beside him. i'm not embarrase to admit that i feel sad too. segala ape yg dowg wat tak kesampaian.

skrg, dah 10 thn kejadian tu. dowg pn dah besar2 dah. but one thing for sure, they said that they will never ever forget his late friend who were happy dan bertenaga pada mulanya. dan hanya selang beberapa hari saje, their friends are gone. aku bleh tgk frienship dowg, how they be friends after the tragedy, it reminds me of my close friends. huhu. dowg ckp lg, dowg sedih sbb David mati pd saat2 penyelamat sampai. ohh, lupa plak, nama bdk tu David. he will always be with them.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

:: Aidil Adha Edition ::

Salam to all my readers

this is my first entry since Hari Raya. takde mood nk hapdate blog. huhu. mabuk daging lembu mungkin. sejak beberapa hari ni, daging lembu jd santapan aku. daging kicap la, daging masak tumis, daging goreng, masak nasi goreng pn letak daging blambak2. well, Hari Raya Aidil Adha kali ni lbh meriah drp thn lps. maybe ayah aku buat korban, so, terisi la gak hari raya aku. selebihnya luangkan masa ngn adik beradik dan sepupu sepapat.

skrg ni demam New Moon plak. mana2 blog aku tgk, ada je pic separa bogel si Taylor Lautner tuh, jd santapan para gadis sekalian. well, tak bleh salahkan dowg gak, hahaha, i mean me myself get so jealous tgk badan mantap Taylor, pdhal umur sama baya ngn aku je. suke gak tgk muka childish Kristen Stewart. huhu. soooo damn cute. aku tak dpt tk lg, harap2 sempat la aku tgk nnt. ok2, enough of this twilight saga.

so, raya hari tu, se'ramai' 3 ekor lembu berjaya ditumbangkan. dgn segala tenaga kerja pnduduk kampung (ada antaranya aku tak kenal), kerja2 penyembelihan berjalan dgn lancar. hepi gler sbb tgk ramai btol yg dtg bg sokongan kt ktowg. yg tak bestnye, dalam ramai2 tu, most of them are not my relatives. dowg join venture sekali sembelih lembu. raya kali ni atok aku dah takde, so anak2 dia pecah2 la wat korban. sorg kt sini, sorg kt sana. that's why la tak dpt sekali. but at the end of the day, umah nenek aku penuh dgn daging korban. hahaha. da bau cam tmpt jual daging dah.

~ pic @ hari raya ~

raya thn ni ada sepupu aku yg tak blk. cuti kjap, dowg plak bz ngn spm la, exam apekebende la. adik aku pn 3 hari je cuti. tu yg hari ahad ari2 pgi anta dia kt Kuala Pilah. otw blk Kelantan on the same day tu, masyaAllah, aku rasa ni la kejadian paling byk kete yg kuar dari Pantai Timur pulang ke umah masing2. sepanjang perjalanan aku, tak putus2 kete. aku sampai Kelantan dlm pukul 12 tgh mlm still ada lg kete. panjang gler. kalo kowg g stesen minyak, mmh lmbt la nk bleh isi minyak tuh coz dah mcm semut urung gula da aku tgk. bsusun kt stesen minyak tuh.

moment yg plg best psl raya haji ni bg aku, adalah raya haji thn, ermm, aku tak ingt la, tp rasa2nye antara thn 2004-2005. sbb ape?? sbb, raya haji thn tersebut aku still rapat ngn sepupu2 aku dan atok aku wat korban lembu kt umah. so, berhimpun la sume sedare, yg jauh, yg dkt, sume dtg la tlg melapah lembu. aku time tu tak bape reti lg so just tlg potong2 daging dan tlg yg kecik2 jela. rasa best dan kadang2 sayu pn ada ingt time2 dulu. bila masa da berubah ni, manusia pn berubah gak. tak dpt ckp la perubahan tu membawa kebaikan atau keburukan tp apa yg au tgk, aku kurang suka dgn perubahan tu. hmmm...

Thursday, November 26, 2009

:: Red Guitar ::

Salam to all my readers

yesterday i just finish downloading Kris Allen brand new album, titled Kris Allen. there's a gossip saying that the way Kris Allen dressed in his cover album is just like Adam Lambert, you know with the leather jacket, the accessories he wore minus the eye-liner. but to me, it's never been an issue about the cover album. come on, fashion is universal and i don't think he looks like Adam at all. both of them have their own style and besides, Kris looks fresh and have a bit rock image in his cover. he's still young, although he's a married guy, but it suits his age.

i don't know much about music from what i've listened, the songs are really shows who is Kris Allen. it's just like back when he was in American Idol and if you guys love Kris when he was in Idol, then you are gonna love this. sometimes i do feel like listening to a country song coz it's like Kris is good at both genres. i don't know whether the songs are memorable or not but they do caught my attention the first time i listen to his songs. to all Kris Allen's fans, i think this album is worth to listen to. here are the tracks :

  1. Live Like We're Dying
  2. Before We Come Undone
  3. Can't Stay Away
  4. The Truth
  5. Written All Over My Face
  6. Bring It Back
  7. Red Guitar
  8. Is It Over
  9. Let It Rains
  10. Allright With Me
  11. Lifetime
  12. I Need To Know
  13. Heartless

so if you're the fan of this good-looking guy, go and get this album (whether you go to store and buy it or just download it from the net).


p/s ~ Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha to all my readers! Selamat Menjalani Ibadah Korban!

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

:: i know how it feels to be a wizard! ::

Salam to all my readers

ok, straight to the main point ek. malas nak update pasal keadaan banjir kt sini. ok, here we go. pernah tak korg mimpi satu mimpi yg bersambung2? i mean, you had this dream long time ago, and then yesterday you dreamt the sequel of the dream. pretty funny isn't it. pagi tadi, lps subuh aku mimpikn satu bnda ni. dulu pn aku pnh mimpi psl bnda ni gak. kali ni sambungan dia. org kte tak elok cite psl mimpikan, tp takpe, aku ttp nk cite gak, walaupun ingt2 lupa je neh. haha.

yg buat aku hepi, ialah dlm mimpi tu aku adalah seorang wizard. cm Harry Potter la, tp wizard kelas bawahan coz dlm mimpi tu aku struggle sket nk gune power aku. tak gune wand pn, gune tgn aje. ade 5 watak dlm mimpi aku tuh, including me. wizard2 lain sume pro, just aku dgn membe aku je yg struggle sket. kire kdg2 bleh kuar power, kdg2 tak bley. that explain why our task is to destroy a low-class aliens (haha, ktowg lawan alien). my power is to produce green light from both of my hands and the aliens will burst to death if they're expose to my green light. haha. kowg bygkan jela cne aku angkat tgn aku, halakan ke arah alien tu.

~ imagine i'm wearing a black robe and doing just like that to produce the green light ~

it maybe looks easy to destroy the aliens but here's the trick. i must avoid direct contact with the alien, kalo tak, immune aku decrease. lbh krg cm2 r. yg jd drama sket dlm mimpi aku tu ialah masa semangat aku jatuh gara2 aku tak bleh produce green light tu. berlatih gigih ni, nk lawan alien. cuaca plak kejap ribut, kejap hujan (maybe time aku mimpi tu hujan, tu yg effect mimpi aku tuh), buat aku lg ssh nk fokus. gler r, bru taw ssh gak nk jd wizard neh. nk lwn alien pn ssh, bayangkan ktowg berlima, lwn beratus2 alien. aku plak struggle nk lwn, mmg thriller r mimpi aku neh. seyes.

~ cni la lbh krg aku lawan, bygkn la yg hijau tu aku ~

ktowg pnye battle terbahagi kpd 2 round. 1st round, ok lg, coz alien xramai. kire aku mampu gak la mengawal keadaan. sempat hancurkan 2 3 alien. haha, bgga jap. masuk yg 2nd round ni dah huru hara. ramai plak gang2 dia dtg. member2 aku yg ada wand sng sket la, aku dua org je kne gune tangan. saat genting bila ktowg dah tak dpt kawal keadaan, very chaos at that time, we couldn't handle it. and that was when one of the alien manage to touch my body, and i felt weak all of a sudden. my teammates were all worrying about me and they took my body to a safer place. then, tiba2 je aku terjaga, dgn berdebar2 jantung aku. geram gak nape la tiba2 leh t'jage. shoot!

byk lg actually aku nak cite tp ingt2 lupa la. aku hepi gler coz i'm a big fan of Harry Potter so it's always been my dream to live in a world like Harry and have power like a real wizard, you know, own a wand, which clearly i'm not gonna get it in real life. dpt mimpi pn jadi la kan. bila ingat blk, wow, what a journey! aku tak ingat mimpi yg dulu tp mmg mimpi aku ni bersambung. it's weird but i like it very very much!

p/s ~ mintak2 la mlm ni aku mimpi sambungan yg ke-3 plak..hahahaha!!

Sunday, November 22, 2009

:: another day in 'paradise' ::

Salam to all my readers

it feels like i'm in winter season right now, with raining all day, the wind. make me feel sleepy all the time coz there's not much i can do, except for sitting in front of my lappy, checking my facebook, reading my friends' blog and finally sleeping. dah 2 minggu aku kat umah. basically doing nothing. mak aku suh cari keje, ade gak pgi cari. tp, sampai sekarang belum ada satu kedai pn yang call aku balik. so, i assume they are not gonna hire me.

bosan betol la. nak tgk wayang, kat Kelantan takde pawagam. satu benda yang hampeh bagi seorang kaki wayang spt aku (kaki wayang ke?? hehe). takkan kena turun Kuantan kot kalo nk tgk wayang. gile ke hape. nk donlod cter, cuaca hujan cni, slow la tenet aku. asyik dc aje. cm bangang aje. semalam dah taktaw nk watpe, layan la cter hindustan kt TV2, Hum Tum. cter ni aku dah berpuluh-puluh kali aku tgk, tp sebab jalan cter dan pelakon dia best, so aku layan jela. Saif Ali Khan dgn Rani Mukherjee tu. sape yang tak minat dowg kn (yes, i'm a big fan of bollywood movie, nape? tak percaye??).

malam tu, otw nk g makan, ade sorg pakcik tua ni lalu lalang dpn umah aku. aku tak kenal. tp bapak aku ckp owg tak bape btol tu. jiran2 pn tak suke. hari2 dtg dari umah ke umah minta keje. kalo yg baik sgt2 hati tu, upah la pakcik tu basuh kete ke, potong rumput ke. masa nk pgi makan tu, pintu pagar, grill sume kunci, haha, takut2 pakcik tu masuk umah. then pagi td, pakcik tu dtg lg umah aku. time tu aku tgh kusyuk bce paper Bintang Popular. kebetulan ayah aku bukak pintu, nampak pakcik tua tu, ape lg, hangin r bapak aku. dia tengking pakcik tu, kte xpyh dtg sini lg.

kalo bapak aku takde td, aku amek alih tmpt dia. haha. kasi marah sket itu pakcik. cam tak reti base. org tak btol, mane nk reti base. curiga btol aku tgk pakcik tu. bukan ape, org mcm tu, kadang2 jgn buat baik sgt. dah la tak kenal. taw2 nnt pecah masuk umah org plak. kalo hilang barang ok lg, takut2 nnt bunuh membunuh plak. lgpn skrg kn byk kes2 pecah masuk, bunuh dan rogol2 neh. haishhh judiene. too much thinking. haha. but it's ok la, prepare for trouble kan.

ntah bila hujan ni bk benti. plan gathering ngn member2 lama pn kena postpone. ckp psl member lama, i feel bad you know writing about my friend on my previous entry. i was angry and mad when i wrote it. i mean, i'm not supposed publicly publish the story about his wrongdoings. but it's too late already. cannot delete the entry la (although i know hoe to do so :p). moral value to all of you, never do that to your friend ok. seriously i mean it. it's not nice and people will think that you're selfish and have a bad attitude towards your friend. please change or you might end up losing friends.

~ Tokio Hotel ~

p/s ~ try dgr lagu Tokio Hotel - Hey You. it sounds good to me. hehe.

Friday, November 20, 2009

:: it's a guy thing that sounds girly ::

Salam to all my readers

hurmm, nmpaknye hujan kt Kelantan ni semakin menjadi2 sejak 2 3 hari ni. hujan start dari pagi sampai malam, non-stop. nak keluar umah pn ssh. ni la manusia kan, bila panas, nk hujan. bila hujan plak, nak panas. bersyukur la judiene umah ko xbanjir. alhamdulillah. skrg ni, aku tgh tgk air hujan yg jatuh mengalir kat tingkap umah. berjurai2 jatuh ke bumi. hujan lebat kan. dan mcm tu gak la ati aku menangis. ok, da msk part sdey2. huhuhu~~

aku ni xpnh kapel. bru nk try la. innocent lg aku ni, still virgin. hahaha. opss, mode sdey, lupe lak. ok2. aku b'kwn ngn sorg ni. pd sesape yg kenal aku in person, ske ati korg la nk wat andaian ape pn, aku xksh. umur ktowg berbeza, tp xdela jarak jauh sgt. ktowg kwn start dari high skul lg. so after aku dh graduate dr high skul, stdy kt tmpt len, da jarang2 contact. awal2 thn ni je dia baru wat YM, so, aku dpt taw YM die drp fs. frenship ktowg on blk la. bru2 ni ktowg gaduh sbb satu bnda yg die mnta aku tlg tp aku xdpt tlg.

~ broken friendship ~

ok cni cter die. dia nk pnjam duit ngn aku. time tu aku xde duit. ntah nape dia bengang gler ngn aku sbb hal ni. cm desperate sgt nk gne duit, aku tnye nk watpe die xgtaw. so, last2, die ckp "ko ni aku nk mntak tlg pn ssh! ok r, dah r ko". aku tercengang dpt msj cm2 dari die. lbh krg sebulan lbh gak la ktowg xbertnya khabar sblm ktowg baik blk. tp dlm mse sebulan lbh tu la aku dpt tgk perangai sbnr die. lgsg xmsj aku pn. aku ni la yg terhegeh2 mntk maaf la, tnye itu ini. dah beratus2 kali aku mntak maaf kt die, satu pn xbls. jenuh aku tggu msj die xbalas2. last2 ati aku cm da give up nk baik blk ngn die. then one day..

"din, xpela, aku da xmarah ko da"

"yeke, aku tggu msj ko xbalas2 pn..bla bla bla"

"xpe, don worry psl aku..bla bla bla"

aku hepi gler mse die msj aku, walaupun aku terfikir gak, sngnye die on, off, on blk. xde reason pape pn knape lame die nk bls msj aku. malas la aku nk tnye sbb tkot gaduh lg. selang beberape hari, ktowg gaduh lg. kali pn sme gak, aku la yg kne mntak maaf dlu. ok, fine, ko kwn aku, xpe. pastu skrg ni, tetibe lak die snyap ngn aku. aduyai, ape kes lg la neh. aku da rse cm, kte baik2 ngn die, sng2 aje die pijak kepale aku. maybe aku da bkn kwn yg mcm die knl kt sekolah dlu. bnda2 cni wat aku skt ati. ok, aku admit, aku agak sng la wat ape yg dia suruh sbb ntah la, bnda2 yg die nk sng je aku wat.

kdg2 aku rse cam aku yg terlalu baik ngn someone ni, smpai die bleh pijak kepala aku then da peduli pasaan aku. time ko nk jd kwn aku, ko msj tnye khabar la ape la, time ko xnk, satu msj pn xbls. snyap je. kalo bz, ckp la bz ke, ape ke, nk stdy ke. ni snyap je. bikin gua panas r. aku xtaw cne dia layan org lain tp aku mmg skt ati skrg. msj pn xbls. YM pn xbls walaupun dia on, tgk2 sign out cm2 je. aku nk tgk smpai mne die bleh wat cni! arghhhh!

p/s ~ sorry kalo entri aku kali agak 'gurly' and pelik sket tp this is what i feel now. it's a guy thing, that sounds weird!

Thursday, November 19, 2009

:: aku nak makan pun segan.. ::

Salam to all my readers

hurmmm, it's been raining for 2 days here, non-stop. kalo stop pn still hujan renyai2. dan selama 2 hari tu jugak la aku mandi sekali sehari. it looks like banjir buat kali ke 2 akan menyusul la kat Kelantan ni. sonok la budak2 kat sini, bleh main air banjir. tapi korg jgn xtaw, mak bapak budak pn ade gak join sekaki mandi air banjir ni. mula2 "polan, jgn main banjir tuh, bahaya", lama2, "ishh, budak ni, xdengar cakap btol la. nak kene aku turun jugak". ayat cover mak bapak, kononnye nak tegah anak padahal niat di ati jeles tgk anak main banjir. hahaha. xbleh blah.

ok2, ni baru msk main point entry ni. smlm, dlm hujan yg ala2 gerimis tuh, me and ma dad went to this restaurant, selling food like burger, pizza and all McD-Pizza-KFC-kinda food. what i wanna share with you guys is the name of the shop. it's sooooo hilarious and kinda stupid if i think twice. so not creative and soooo, ermm, never mind. take a look at da pics i took yesterday while waiting for the food. takut die pnye bos marah, aku snap pic ni snyap2. cm totally spies la plak.

~ sorry kualiti pic low :P ~

if you guys can't see clearly, look at the second pic below.

~ haa, da nampak?? ~

seriously it made me and my dad laugh and we can't keep ourselves from making jokes out of the name. sooo not creative isn't it. i mean, it's like you copy the well-known McDonald name and redesign it a lil bit then tadaaaa - MacDe! Pizza die pn jadi Pizza Hir. and you know what, the worst part was when my mum actually asked me to do part-time job there. then i told her, "umi, along nak keje kat situ pun segan". hahaha. honestly guys, it's because of the name that made me embarasse to work there, yela, walaupun rezeki tu halal kan, but, come on la.

but i like the interior design of the shop. it's not like Wow!, its just the design make the shop look expensive, at least 'expensive' than the name. hahaha. i like the idea of painting the ceiling black coz by looking at the ceiling only make you feel like you're in a expensive boutique or high-standard shop. hahaha. but beside all that, the pizza here can be categorized as B la, means boleh laaa. sedap la jugak kan. kene la ngn nama pizza die tuh. tapi burger die, hmmm, sedap lagi burger yg aku beli kt stall tepi jalan kt Jalan Rasah, Seremban tuh.

~ aiyakk, xnampak lak siling die ~

~ pic menu die pnye la gempak tp xsesedap yg disangka ~

tgh2 aku dok bz snap pic dlm kedai tu, aku pasan ade sorg minah ni dok usha aku je. aku nmpk ngn hujung mata aku. kowg taw ape aku pikir?? salah, salah, mst kowg ingt aku nk kte yg minah tu tgk aku sbb aku hensem kn. hahaha. bkn, bkn. aku nk ckp, yg minah ni pelik la tgk aku amek gambar cm2. haishhh. aku pn buat2 la taip mesej, mne taw, kot2 minah yg usha aku tuh anak tawke kedai tu ke, sekali dia repot, mampus aku.

ok la, enough with the crappy things. but one thing for sure, i hate the name. i really mean it! why they don't just create a totally different brand. if Pizza Hut or McD staffs look at the restaurant, i'm sure they will laugh out loud, with tears oozing from their eyes and they will make fun out of it. i'm sorry if anyone offend with this entry but i'm just expressing what i feel towards this thing. if you guys hate it, or feel like i'm being too cruel writing like this, haha, sorry but i don't give a damn about that. until then. daaa~~

p/s ~ kpd sape2 yg berkaitan dgn kedai tu, buat la penjenamaan semula. lawak r name kedai cm2. hahaha. k, peace!

Monday, November 16, 2009

:: let's rock on! ::

Salam to all my readers

it's been ages since i post up something like emo entry or i throw tantrum into this blog of mine. it feels great when you write about things you unsatisfy with, or something that make you upset but it seems that nothing emo happen to me recently so i might postpone my intention about that. i'm running out of idea actually so to make my blog updated, i would like to share with you guys some of the latest song that i know.

i'm trying to download the latest album of Boys Like Girls, called Love Drunk, using my software. it's pretty easy you know coz whatever song that you feels like to hear, you can always download it from the net. ahahaha. i know, it's illegal but let me tell you something, if people around you having a great time download their favorite songs, without having to use their money to buy the album at the store, do you really wanna go and buy the album of your favorite artiste? i mean seriously? some of you might go and do so but majority of us rather download it from buying it right. so, don't blame me. hahaha.

some of the songs that i feel good to listen to are :
  • BLG - Two Is Better Than One (featuring Taylor Swift)
  • BLG - Real Thing
  • BLG - She's Got A Boyfriend Now
  • BLG - I Told You So
i still haven't heard all of their songs yet but these three songs are, i think, got a very edgy-type of rock and i like how they made their guitars sounds. awesome. hahaha. macam pengkritik album plak aku ni but hey, if you guys have any latest song to share, do list it in the comment box. thanks for sharing.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

:: i don't want time to fly faster ::

Salam to all my readers

as i'm typing this entry, i don have any idea what to write, what to share with u guys. hurmm, i'm kinda running out of idea nowadays. people say if u don have anything to write, better don't write. keep things low for a period of time then if u have stories, make it boom. people will miss ur blog and ur crappy entries. u know what i'm saying guys. but i think that doesn't work for my blog. so i have to keep it updated, hehe.

time flies without we even noticed what we've done in between. unlike kerol, i don't want time to pass me faster. haha. i want it to be slow and steady, enjoy every single minute doing things that i love. haha (cm poyo je ayat aku). sedar xsedar, i've completed first part of my practical session. i learnt lot of things through the journey. bad, good, everything. i've met very cool people there, make some new friends, which was a very good experience in order to enhance my communicating skills. maybe people out there don't understand this, but i'm really glad that everything went well.

next sem, next year or whatever next, i'm hoping that there's a space for me to do good and beneficial thing. sounds weird rite, hahaha, i know. so no need for u guys to think about this. start next part of my practical, ade kwn yg da xkn kembali ke hospital. those yg da tamat ssesi practical mereka, bubbye. kalo yg dkt2 area Seremban xpela leh jmpe la. no hal la kalo setakat nk lepak2 ke, layan karok smpai 2 3 pagi ke. hahaha. xabes2 karok. tp pd yg tggl jauh tu, ssh la sket nk jmpe ek. xpe, kalo umur pnjang, jmpe gak nnt.

~ Last karok ngn dak2 trainee, thanx to Sya baucer free hehe ~

skrg aku da kt umah, xde wat pape pn. aku kembali menjadi babysitter to my baby cousin, named Damia. she's adorable. hehe. ingt nk cari keje part time tp cm ssh je nk dpt kt area umah aku ni. yela, bndar Tanah Merah ni kecik aje. pizza hut pn xde taw. tu yg plg frust. kalo pawagam or bowling centre tu xpyh ckp la. xdpt la aku nk tgk 2012 kt wayang. seb bek smpat tgk Jennifer's Body before blk aritu. hahaha. superb r cite tuh. aku ske! megan fox mmg membuat air liur meleleh. menggiurkan. haha. that's da fact ok, not like i'm gila seks ke ape ke. hehe.

~ me and baby mia ~

k la, enough of my entry yg karut lg mengarut ni. but before i go, aku nk suggest kt korg la kan. skrg byk lagu2 baru, try la layan lagu neh :
  • Jesse McCartney - Body Language
  • Justin Bieber - One Less Lonely Girl
  • Britney Spears - 3
  • Jason Castro - Let's Fall In Love Again
  • Backstreet Boys - Straight Through My Heart
  • Lady GaGa - Bad Romance
  • Allison Iraheta - Friday I'll Be Over You
byk lg sbnrnye tp tkt pnjg lak entry aku ni. hahaha. kalo korg ade lagu2 best, gtaw la aku. k. c ya!

Saturday, November 7, 2009

:: SAYA SEDANG - taip sambil cek my facebook ::

- taip sambil cek my facebook

- taip sambil dgr dak2 nk tgk America's Next Top Model

- taip sambil risau pasal exam ptg esk

- taip sambil pikir nk makan ape mlm neh..hmmmm??

- taip sambil azan berkumandang (xreti2 ag nk solat??) ;p


-taip sambil pikir mcm mne nak kuruskan badan..

-taip sambil pikir byknye soalan psl 'saya sedang' neh.. ;p

-taip sambil fikir sapa saya nak tag ek??? ermmm, malas r tag sesape..

aku di'tag' oleh miesz naddy..hahaha..thanx for tagging me..

Monday, November 2, 2009

:: i'm penniless. bkn xde penis laa!! ::

Salam to all my readers

money, money, money and money. duit, duit dan duit. those word are differently spelled but has da same meaning. every single people in this world need money. why?? bcoz money is everything.......nowadays. tipu la kalo ade yg ckp money is not everything. statement tu bg aku, is limited. meaning, hanya certain2 time je leh gne statement tu. but, most of the time, money is really what we need. u guys know why suddenly i talk about money? ha? anybody? ade sesape taw ke?? well, meh kte tgk sket demi sket.

ok, 1st. i'm in my practical session, so, my college doesn't give me allowance like they used to when we were at college. 2nd, it's nearly end of the year, and i already use all my ptptn loan. 3rd, i'm afraid and shy to call my dad and ask from him. then he'll say, "nk mntk duit bru nok tepon abah deh," huhuhu. ok la, i admit, i seldomly call my parents. but it's not like i'm the 'anak derhaka' ok. not at all. so have u got d answer why i write about this? haha, that's bcoz i'm officially broke now! ;pp yes, read my lips, I'M BROKE! bkn beruk la, aku xde duit. i'm penniless. bkn xde penis la. haisyhhhhh.

~ poket kosong, habuk je ade ~

bayangkn la cne my dad gave me RM200, and i spent it all just in 2 weeks and plus plus?? no no no, aku xde boros ape2 pn, seriously guys. just makan, duit minyak kete, makan, more makan and more makan. see?? mne ade boros pn. kt sini, i spend rm10 ++ for my brunch and my dinner. dah la uitm xbg elaun utk student practical. aiyaaa. jelez tgk dak2 IMR and kolej2 len yg dpt elaun and xpyh byr blk (kalo ptptn loan cm aku kne behutang la smpai koje nnt). kalo nk iikutkn sejarah pembelian aku, this sem xdelah seboros sem2 lps. hahahaha. why again? sebabnye, sem2 lps aku tggl kt kolej, dpt elaun makan, tebal la sket poket. tu yg baju 2 3 helai beli. tgk movie la, jln2 cari makan la. tp alhamdulillah sem ni xseteruk sem2 lps but still, aku over da bajet.

ok, i admit la, aku pn byk g karok ngn member2 aku yg gile karok neh. haaaa, mmg, sem ni aku byk gler g karok. smpaikn aku yg mule2 segan nk nyanyi tetibe conquer tmpt karok tu kn. ahahahahaha. tu just hiperbola k. reti sket. tp x, karok tu pn bkn penyebab aku jd broke cni. ntah2 ade toyol mne dtg umah aku mlm, kebas sume duit aku. no no no, xmgkn. tp mgkn jugak toyol tu sbnrnye adalah jelmaan manusia, iaitu aku, sbb aku yg gne duit aku smpai abes. da da, mengarut plak!! owh ya, xingt plak, sem ni ade HARI RAYA, so shopping2 la sket. kowg taw, aku beli 2 helai jeans skali shopping. teeeeeeeeet. dah, dah jmpe da kt mne aku boros. heeeeeeeeeeee~~

aku penah gak google on how to manage your money tp hampeh. aku still fail. i'm a loser la when it comes to handling money neh. mgkn jugak sbb aku spend on food byk sgt, smpai aku jd gemuk. yeahh, u read my lips. i'm gaining a lot of weight la lately. cissss, cm poyo je, knon2 dlu aku kurus la. ahahahahaha. xcaye tgk pic sblh. i'm berisi already. haiyaaa. ok, msk topik baru plak. if u notice, my cheek, see, it's getting bigger and bigger. sory kualiti gmba kurang memuaskan. tp kalo kowg tgk aku overall, from top to toe, xdela nmpk gemuk sgt. mgkn ilusi optik kowg je tuh. ahahahaha. xbley blah.

wateva it is guys, moral value from this post are, handle your money wisely, buy what you really need, don't be 'boros2' k. aku pnh mengalaminye, so aku taw la cne pasaan jd boros ni. hahaha. then, satu lagi moral value. mkn berpada2. exercise lebih. kalo dpt jogging 3x seminggu tu kire ok dah tu. amalkan healthy and balance diet. haaa, amek ko, kalah Kevin Zahri aku bagi tips kesihatan. ahahahaa. renung-renungkan dan selamat beramal. :))

p/s ~ btw, Happy Halloween guys..

Thursday, October 29, 2009

:: aku nk kawen org NEGRO la ::

Salam to all my readers

i'm gonna talk about love again, hope u guys don't mind. haha. entry ni kesinambungan utk entry aku before this, lets-'coupling' edition. lantak la korg nk label aku jiwang karat ke ape ke (i wonder cne org bleh ckp jiwang itu karat??), coz love is something we really need, love is what we really want..cehhh, petikan lirik lagu Adam Lambert bertajuk Want.. donlod r, best lagu tuh..vokal terbaik drp Adam since he won 2nd place on American Idol.. ok, da melalut dah..

~ adam lambert ~

again, aku nk tnye pndapat dr kowg, my readers, but this time, it's about interracial marriage. means kawen campur la bg mereka yg KO english.. ahahahahaha.. jahatnye aku.. english aku pn bterabur.. kawen cmpur la, cm india kawen malay ke, cina + india ke, negro ngn malay ke.. haaaa.. setahu aku la kn, kawen cmpur ni benefit die dpt kt anak, coz nabi ckp kalo kawen campur nnt otak anak akan jd lbh bijak..aku xpasti sejauh mne kebenarannye tp tu la yg aku taw.. kalo kowg ade pape info lg leh la komen ek. dlu pn aku pnh bercita2 nk cri chinese gal la. ahahahaaha. agak2 kowg, sesuai x aku ngn chinese. try la bayangkn. kalo xleh gak, nnt aku kirim pic aku, kowg bayangkn la, tp jgn smpai termuntah plak. :)) nnt mst anak2 aku mata sepet doe. ahahahaha. berangan ko judiene. hisyyhhhhh!

dlu aku pnh dgr, org ckp if org bkn islam, kawen ngn org islam, dowg mst peluk islam BUT mst atas kerelaan sndiri, bkn sbb dowg nk kawen ngn org islam. aku rse cm2 la kot aku dgr. tp ari2 plak, aku terbace dlm buku Al-Islam, yg mengatakn, bahawasenye, pemelukan islam oleh org bkn islam atas dasar kawen adalah dibenarkan, which made me yahOO! coz nnt bleh la aku teruskn misi aku cri chinese gal. ;pp ala, cmon la guys, kowg pn mst ade cita2 nk kawen ngn minah saleh la, japanese gal ke, kn?? kn?? huhu. whateva la kn.

~ it would be nice if i can marry someone like in this pic ;p ~

actually kn, aku tgk org negro pn lawa r skrg. xcaye tgk r kt tv ke, penyanyi2 kt US skrg, negro pn da jd lawa. xmustahil one day nnt aku kawen ngn negro. dan anak aku nnt cmfem memiliki kulit kaler nescafe susu. ahahahaha. tp yg pst ttp cute miut. tgk r heidi klum ngn seal tu. lawa je anak dowg. ahahahaha. ape aku merepek neh!! satu lg, nafsu negro pn mantap doe. dowg pnye power, perghhhh, huhuhu.. phm2 ajela. ahahahaha.

but seriously guys, interracial marriage really caught my attention. bkn ape, it's good to marry someone with different race and language. at least we can learn and share our culture with each other. but of coz, it doesn't come easy. kdg2 ade yg bersikap narrow-minded dlm hal2 cni. ade yg parents xizinkan anak2 dowg tukar agama la and watsoeva. ade yg smpai xbertegur lgsg dgn family. hmmm. tp kalo da jodoh nk wat cne kn. terima jela, ngn negro ke, cine ke, india ke, kte kan 1Malaysia. ahahahahaha. whateva it is guys, do share ur thots with me regarding this matter ok. i know kowg mst ade byk lg info kn. sharing is loving. :DD

Sunday, October 25, 2009

:: lets-'coupling' edition ::

Salam to all my readers

sejak akhir2 ni, mood aku no blogging cm da pudar, i'm running out of idea about what to post. no interesting event happen recently. so that's why i end up talking about my practical lab in my previous entry, which i know pretty boring kn. huh. aku yg menulis pn boring nk abeskn entry tuh. ni kn plak kowg yg membace.

ok la, aku taw entry aku agak 'ntah hape-hape' kn lately, but here is the serious thing. this is not a jiwang karat entry ok, but still the thing that i wanna ask u guys is pretty lame and girlish. huhuhu. i'm not gonna be Dr.Love or Love Guru, all i want is an opinion from my readers. dunno la why this few weeks back i've been thinking about love, love, love. more love. then love again. huh. pretty lame, kn.

well, just like da latest single of Mariah Carey quoted,

i wanna know what love is

i want you to show me

i wanna feel what love is

i know you can show me..

like the lyric above, i want you to show me. well, up till now, i couldn't find my 'you'. who want to show me love?? come on, u guys can sign up here. ahahahahaha. just for ladies ok. but men will be taken into consideration. ahahahahaa. lOlz. just joking ok. no need to take it seriously. one of my friend once said to me, "xde gf susah, ade gf lagi susah". hmmmm, ssh nk komen kn. this is very subjective matter. there's no right or wrong anwser coz it's all depends on the individual. every person have different opinion and point of view regarding this matter.

~ kissing with passion is one way to say 'i love you' ~

from what i see thru people around me, there are 2 kind of people when it comes to love. the 1st one is, org yg blom temui cinta dan ligat utk mencarinya. biasanya golongan neh byk r siri2 ngorat-mengorat dan rmai cewek2 yg ade dlm portfolio mereka. dowg ni cm asyik nk try pompuan je, kalo xde pompuan cm xepy idop dowg. lps sorg, sorg die try. yg 2nd plak, mereka yg blom temui cinta tetapi xfokus sgt dlm bab ni. maybe their priority is more to study or career. biasanye, golongan ni pcaye yg jodoh tu telah ditetapkn dan akan dtg suatu hari nnt wlau tidak dicari. hmmmm, btol kah??

actually, to be honest, aku tergolong dlm golongn no. 2 tp my priority are not my stdy and my career, coz aku pn xkeje lg. ahahahaha. it's just aku malas btol nk pikir soal ni. tp ble tgk kwn2 yg tgh mencari and yg dah be'couple', rse cm best je dowg couple. huhuhuhu. ok, i do feel i got carried away with this and it's sound boring kn. ahahahaha. aku pn xtaw ape yg aku merapu2 dlm blog neh.

aku sbnrnye nk dgr pndapat korg je, which one you guys prefer la.. any comment is ok.. so, do leave ur comment k.. and remember, to those who have lot of experience regarding this matter are most welcome.. hehehe.. k, until then, toodles!!

Thursday, October 15, 2009

:: don-read-coz-it-gonna-waste-ur-time edition ::

Salam to all my readers

yeah, referring to da title above, this entry is not as important as da previous one (bajet entry aku penting lak) but it is for those who wanna know bout me and who like to follow my blog (lagi ayat xbley blah kn?? kn??). i'm running out of idea now and dunno what to post la. so, to keep my blog updated, i'm gonna share with u guys about my mggu2 yg terakhir before i finish practical for this sem this 23rd of october.

cytology lab is where i spend my 3 weeks time before the end of my practical. da 2 lab da aku rotate, biochem da 1st one and da 2nd one is microbiology. so, cyto is the 3rd la. for those yg xtaw what the hell cyto is, just google it coz if aku nk explain kt sini, mmg satu entry xckp. tp aku cte gak sket r kalo xnnt kowg cop aku kedekut ilmu lak (hehehe). cytology means the study of cell. ahahahahaaha, tu bahase encilopedia. bahasa kmpung lak, cyto ni cm kaji cell la. cth smple yg ktowg amek cm pap smear (to all women, this is a very2 important test for all of u), smple body fluid cm sputum (kahak) and other fluid dlm badan la.

~ cni la blk tmpt FNAC tuh, juz ktowg pnye xdela se'moden' neh :p ~

ok, mst kowg bosan kn bce 2 perenggan pertama aku neh. da ckp da, tp kowg bce gak. ahahahahahaaha. thanx ek coz sggp menanah mata bce neh. keje kt lab ni just ok je, xbusy sgt la. smple pn dtg dlm kuantiti yg sederhana, and processing da sample pn quite easy la and didn't take lot of time la. ade gak ktowg pgi Fine Needle Aspiration (FNAC). kt sini la ktowg tgk live cne doktor take out sample from patient, cm yg nk cek pre-cancerous kt bhg buah dada and thyroid kt leher. ktowg la yg kne prepare alat2 perang for da doctor. huhuhuhu. best x keje ktowg?? :p

kt FNAC ni bley la kalo kowg nk tgk sakit ke x sakit mse nk amek sample from da patient tuh. ade mcm2 ragam manusia la kan, da yg dpt thn, da yg xthn sgt and mengerang sakit la. nak2 lg yg da berumur kn, mmg kesian tgk dowg. urghhh, arghhhh, ahhhhh, sume ktowg dgr. ingt nk rakam video tuk kowg tgk tp mne leh, whateva happen in da surgical room is private and confidential. ahahahahahaaha.

ok la, i shall stop writing now. i'll be uploading more pics soon so watch this blog! hehehehe.. till then, toodles!!

Saturday, October 10, 2009

:: dalam ramai-ramai, aku kecik je.. ::

Salam to all my readers

i'm seeking an advice actually. entry kali neh lebey kurang cm my inner prob la, prob yg xterluah disebabkan rasa rendah diri yg xsepatutnye. kalo aku cite kat sesape, pasti ayat ni antara yang femes org ckp kt aku, "ala, ko Judiene, wat rilek dah la". this thing happen maybe bcoz i'm not a hippie-hippie person, a bit pasif and not a creative person, dari segi percakapan. hahahahaa. dunno whether u guys can understand it or not, but if any of u got something to share with me, it'll be my pleasure to read your comment.

1st prob ~
the prob that i've been having since i was in secondary school is, aku akan jadi senyap or just be a listener ble aku berada dlm sesuatu kelompok. cthnye la, if dlm ramai2 tgh borak2 kn, i'll be the one who are there, physically but mentally, i'm at other place. it's like i can't communicate with so many people at the same time. hahahaa, funny isn't it??

i don't like, u know, just two people chatting, coz it'll be boring and lack of idea to continue the conversation. kalo dlm group, borak2, bru la best coz nnt ade je yg sambung idea yg nk dibualkan. tp ble dlm grup, aku jd snyap plak. maybe aku jns yg xbyk pengetahuan am, so, that explain why i just noded my head without even relpying them. kdg2 plak if aku ckp something, dowg just, "owh, ok" or sometimes just smilling, tnda dowg dgr pe aku ckp. but then if org len ckp, wahhh, byk plak dowg sambung. siap tergelak2 lg. nmpk sgt ape yg aku ckpkn xpenting or cm WTF je. xtaw la kowg phm ke x ape aku bebel neh.

2nd prob ~
kowg kalo baru2 kenal aku, let say bru beberapa bulan kenal aku, for sure kowg akan ckp aku ni bosan. really bosan. why?? why?? knape aku sggp kte diri aku seorang yg bosan? sbbnye, aku xde byk idea nk ckp. phm x?? cm xphm je.. cni, cthnye la kn, arini kowg jmpe aku, then kte borak2. pastu esk lusa, aku pasti akan ckp lg bnda yg sama. uhuhuuhuhu. kdg2 aku sndiri pasan, then aku jd malu ngn diri aku sndiri. patutla if duduk dlm satu grup, borak, org bralih perhatian kt org len. bcoz ape aku ckp kdg2 membosankn and people maybe think. "die ni asyik ckp bnda ni je".

~ tgk, pic aku pn bosan kn ~

aku perhati gak jenis org2 yg suke borak ni. kdg2 dowg cm xbape kenal taw, tp ble si A ni start borak ngn si B ni, wahhh, cm da kenal sjak kcik. bkn men lg. cm ape yg si A ni ckp, cm kne je ngn si B ni. this kind of personality la yg lack dlm diri aku neh. setakat ni alhamdulillah, xde lg yg ckp kt aku ni bosan, tp dlm ati, sape la yg taw. kdg2 melalui conversation pn aku dpt agak samada idea aku utk conversation ni best ke x. cthnye, if aku ngn kwn2 aku tgh dok borak2, then pas aku abes ckp, sume cm juz snyum2 je, snyap terus. nmpk sgt org xbape berminat ngn idea aku. kalo YM plak lg la, lama gler nk balas msj aku sbb pk ape ptut jawab. see?? see?? it shows that i'm a bosan guy. jeezz!

but, above of all, i still thankful to Allah sbb bg aku kwn2 yg aku ada skrg. without them, maybe idop aku akan lg bosan kot. ehehehehe. tbe2 feeling plak kn. lantak la. aku kn emo. huhuhuhu.

~ sorry if i look a bit fat in this pic :p ~

~ open house umah k.yan ~

~ after jungle trekking ~

p/s ~ try dgr single baru Mariah Carey - I Wanna Know What Love Is, feeling gler dgr lagu tuh.. re-make sbnrnye.. :-)


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