:: no shoulder to cry on ::

Salam

i was planning to write about our day out at Seremban but something was bothering me this past few days
owh, don worry, i'm not sick
it's just, my heart seem a bit distracted
i dunno what cause this unpleasant feeling but it kinda hurt since i'm a guy with 1001 emotions!
but the worst part is, i feel like i'm all alone and there's no one here to comfort me..
sorry this entry is gonna be an emo entry..

do u ever feel like u got a problem but u don have a shoulder to cry on??
i dunno about u guys but i'm feeling it right now
it's suck! horrible man!
i feel like i'm drowning in my own problems
i can't breathe
i'm clueless
i may look cool and fine if u see from the outside
but deep inside my heart, i really wish i have someone to turn to so that i can open up about my problems
ahhh, it's not really a problem though but everything i do it seem not wrong


it's really hurt when it comes to human's feeling
there's no cure for it
only time will heal the wound
but the wound that i'm feeling now, is still bleeding
sorry for being so emotional but since i don't have a shoulder to cry on
my blog is perfect to replace


but above all, what make me feel like i'm goin' crazy is the problem itself!
it's something that a normal human are not suppose to feel
it's weird that i can tell u the problem
ohh god!
it's not a surprise if i'll be diagnosed with depression one day
pills??
yeah, anti-depressant pills can do
but, no, i'm not gonna take it
no, never!

hmmmm...
i'm totally crazy!!!


p/s ~ i'm not expect u guys to understand this stupid and crazy entry anyway...

:: nk tp xbley ::

Salam to all my readers

i'm a bit bz this week
coz this is my 1st week as a trainee at Hospital Tuanku Jaafar, Seremban
as a Medical Lab Technologist
me and Adly are placed in the Chempath Lab
it's fun and pretty tired since the lab got many samples to deal with
and most of them are urine

i don have time to write this entry longer so i'm gonna share with u guys about my practical session here at Seremban later
plz don miss me
hahahaha
so see u guys soon!

daaa~~

:: its hurt when.. ::

It's really hurt when u believe someone and u share everything with him

but

the believe that u have in him is not enough to make him do the same to u

it's a bit weird but it hurts me

i dunno whether i'm jealous or what

but

its really hurt

u believe someone but he don't feel the same towards u



~sorry~

:: when Dr. Love starts to talk.. ::

Salam to all my fellow readers

now, i'm typing this entry live from my small rent room in Seremban
as u guys know kn, i'm gonna start my practical soon at Hospital Tuanku Jaafar here
so, to anyone who are dying to see me (haha) pls don come to the hospital
lOlz
can't wait to start practical laa (sarcastically) (",)

u know what guys, lately i've been thinking a lot about this
it's not bcoz i'm dying to try this or desperately need this
but, seeing my friend with their couples, happy2, yeah, most of them happy but ade gak la yg berendam ayaq mata hehe
yeah, that's what i've been thinking - COUPLE
u got it right
one of my old friend said that, maybe i'm gay, so that's why i'm not crazily looking for girls and single until now
am i gay?
yeah, i think i am
hahaha..

ok la, here's my opinion on this matter
i repeat again, this is just my honest opinion and doesn't relate to any people ok
so nnt jgn xpuas ati kutuk2 aku ek!!!
couple, it's a bond between man and woman, influenced by love
but there's also couple between man and man
or woman and woman
but that's the other side of the story..

couple ni ade +ve and -ve dia
according to Dr. Judiene aka me (aishhh)
couple bring more -ve influences than +ve ones
u know, when u start dating a girl, it means u have to start thinking about the responsibilities and the comitments u'll have to give to ur partner
u may be not married yet but if u are thinking of dating someone, plz be serious about it
i hate playboys/playgirls
they don have the right to play with one's feeling
so, be nice, honest and loyal to ur partner, which is not an easy job to do
to be frank, i'm not ready to think about someone's feeling seriously and not ready to trust a girl and make her the queen of my soul
hehehe
that's why la aku xde sesape
make sense x??

tp, ade gak bestnye kalo couple ni
we'll feel appreaciated and have someone to cry to if we get into any trouble
surely there's someone who can comfort u and give u supports
other than ur friend laa
friend always be there for another friend
that's my definition of friendship
other than that, couple gives u way to express ur 'nafsu serakah' to a girl
i mean people will not look twice at u if u hold hands or kiss ur partner
unless ur partner is same gender as u!
hahahaha
WTF la tuu!!!


so, the conclusion (like writing my report la plak) is if u want to involve in this whole couple thing, be sure that u r ready and not just bcoz u r jealous of others
dating is a one step closer to the married life
it's important bcoz u r actually choosing and seeking ur life partner
but above all, it's all depend to God's will
but we as His slaves, should follow His wisdom in everything that we do
hehehe
sekian, wabillahitaufiq walhidayah
assalamualaikum w.b.t

:)


p/s ~ if there's someone who like to invite me to give a speech regarding this matter, do not hesitate to send me an email.. hahahaha!!! xD

:: burning flame ::

~ hiasan semata-mata ~

Salam to all my readers

this entry basically is not so important pn
juz wanna share with u guys about what had happened yesterday
it was nearly a tragic accident but all are safe

like u guy know, the weather here is so hot and dry
so, yesterday evening, my mum bakar sampah
she didn't realize that there were a small area of dry bushes near the place where my mum burnt the garbage
so the fire from the burning garbage spread to the bushes
it cud be doused easily at first since the fire was small
but my dad said "alah, xde pape tuh, jap lg padam la tuh"
my mum listened to him and continued doing what she was doing

then, a couple of minutes later, the wind started to blow heavily
hahaha ade hiperbola neh
so, the fire became big and spread to all the entire bushes near my house
my mum panicked
she yelled to me and asked me to find a pipe
we tried to put out the fire but it was hard
the wind blow helped the fire to spread faster
fortunately, my uncle and few other people came to the rescue
they brought hoses and we combined the latter to make it longer

after nearly 20 minutes (i assume laa) finally, we managed to put out the fire
the ashes from the wood was blown by the wind
thank god the burning didn't attract the fire brigade to come
if they did, definitely we'll be fined
xsempat nk amek pic time tuh!
what a waste!

umi, it was all your fault
u are the one who shud be blamed for the open burning
hahaha
kidding guys
it was an accident laa..
take a look at my pic
sorry for the low-quality pic
we were panicked, remember?? :)

~ the smoke from the burning ~

~ Uncle Jo bz tgk2 asap ~

~ alhamdulillah all are safe! ~