:: when heart is in confusion.. ::

~Jennifer Hawkins, Miss Universe 2004~

Salam to all my readers

" What u seek in a girl?"
" What's ur dreams girl would be?"

Have u ever been asked questions like above?
of coz u had kn
and then u will list down all 'characteristics' that u seek in a girl
and that wud be ur dream girl/guy la kan
and again, of coz some of the characteristics u seek is hardly found in real human being
u can't find someone who 100% meet with ur ideal girl/guy
maybe u found a guy/girl who is handsome, pretty, cute and smart but at the same time they surely lack of other characteristics that u're looking for
do u understand what i'm getting in to??
u'll do..

Me myself now are experiencing the problem
i met a girl who i think suit me and cud be my first gf
but the problem is, my heart is firmly tied with what i cud say, the characteristic of my dream girl
maybe u'll think i'm over the top or insane if i say that i wish i cud date a chinese or an english girl
yes, a chinese and english girl!
i repeat, chinese and english!!!
hahahaha

~Jennifer Hawkins : She'll always be my dream girl! :D~

~She's so damn hot!!!~

it's not like i hate malay girls
no, never
i do love malay girls
it's just, i'm a bit crazy when it comes to this matter
i always imagined how my childrens are goin to look like if i marry sekian sekian sekian
i mean, let say, if i marry a chinese girl, biologically, my childrens will have chinese gene in them
they may get chinese looks too
and according to our Prophet, he encourages mix marriages
it got something to do with the IQ thing of the child..

now u guys know why i wud lovvvvvveeeeee to have a chinese gf
but on top of that, according to my friend la
"sedarlah diri tu sket, muke bknnye hensem sgt, xpyh berangan nk kawen omputih atau cine!"
hehehe
what they said is true
i'm not rich, i'm not smart and i'm not that handsome but maybe a lil cute
huahahahaha!! :D

ok2, back to the topic
i wanna give a go with this girl i found suitable for me
but like i said earlier
my mental and my heart block the feeling inside me
the feeling for her
my mind keep reminding me about my i-dunno-where-i-can-find dream girl whenever i think of couple with her

At this point of my life, didn't have someone to be loved and to love is actually freaking me out
"U shud start looking for one rite now"
that's from my cousin
who had married and has a cute lil baby boy
i dunno whether i cud find the rite girl on the rite time
life is full of surprises
it's hard to predict what may come in the future
but all i can do is pray to Allah, so that Allah will show me the girl who is really meant for me
hahaha

u know what,
i dunno why all of a sudden i'm talking about this
maybe it has something to do with...

with






me who never experience love!!!


p/s ~ i'll be waiting here for u, my love, Jennifer Hawkins! ahaks!! :)