:: tough day! ::

Salam to all my readers

Alhamdulillah, everything is fine now. i'm so glad and happy. my big prob is settled. i'm not gonna spill out my prob here coz it's pretty intense to remember it but the consequences is pretty bad. i might not be able to sit for my final exam and got extend for another 1 fucking more year. can't imagine myself being left alone, with all my friends furthering their degree. but hey, lets forget about everything bad that been happening to me lately ok. now, focus more on what i'm gonna tell.

i actually wanna forget about everything but it seems very hard not to blog bout this. hahaha. guess i'm a not a secretive person. the real prob was, i forgot to validate my course registration. if any of you happen to be a uitm student, then you know what i mean. it's kinda leceh you know to remember this small thing when you're busy doing other important stuffs.

ok, skip the i-forgot-to-validate-then-they-drop-my-subject part. in order for me to sit for the exam, which happen to be this monday, i have to add the subject back. and it's not gonna be an easy job. i have to see this person, then he asked me to get sign from my ketua program, who is not a friendly people. and i got scolded, by each of every person that i meet, for the same mistake that i do. imagine how many times i listen to the same thing, over and over again.

then my ketua program made me climb the Bangunan Canseleri at UiTM Shah Alam, just to see this old man, and ask him to add the subject for me. actually this can be done via phone call but maybe they want me not to repeat the same mistake again, so they kinda make me use the hard way. have no choice so, just do whatever she orders me to do.

~ Canseleri Buiding during the night ~

then again, when i arrived at the Bangunan Canseleri, i was rebuked by the Ketua Bhg Akademik, but this time, regarding my attire. hello, how am i suppose to know what to wear to get into the building? i never been there, and no one tell me about the dress code, even my grumpy ketua program. i wore jeans and shirt. it's casual enough to me. but i just listen to whatever came out from that old man's mouth, as long as he's happy and as long as he could add my subject back. and yeah, he did! but still i don't like they way i've been treated in there.

but all that doesn't matter anymore. finally i can take a deep breath. fuhhh! nearly got myself extend another fucking year!

:: luck, please be at my side ::

Salam to all my readers

i'm facing the toughest and the lowest point of my life, but the worst is still yet to come. i really really really hope that everything would turn out just fine. luck, please be at my side! i need you so damn much!

tomorrow will be the day. i'm scared to face tomorrow.

:(

:: i wanna know him/her ::

Salam to all my readers

you know when i say, "hey i wanna know this girl/guy.", it's not that i fall for her, or i wanna impress him her, or i wanna know him her because later on i can tell her how i feel about him her. no. no it isn't. it just, i wanna make friends. male or female, i don't mind. if they wanna know me, or give positive response after i smiled at them, then i would be more than happy to befriend with them.

but somehow people tend to get the wrong idea regarding the line. it's not a pick up line. it would be stupid and so low for a person to use it as a pick up line. i actually wanna be friend with you because i see you, as a someone who is funny and something interesting that i wanna know more. it's like you are an top artist and i'm your biggest fans.

but please don't get me wrong. i wanna befriend with you not because you're popular, or got lots of friends, or you're handsome. it just i see we have something in common. ok, so next time, please, if i say i wanna know this particular person, it just because i wanna make friends. not because i love him her, or trying to flirt with him her.

hope that person know that there's someone here who wanna be his her friend. i think i have no qualms about making friends with that person.

*back to reality*

OMG! what am i saying????

:: Contest Hangit by Arieza ::

Salam to all my readers

i'm in the middle of completing my case study and all academic-related stuffs but i'm still got time to participate in a contest, organized by Arieza. i know this contest from her blog.

teddy - grrrrr, i wanna bite you!!
me - (surprise) are you really alive??
teddy - are you blind or what, can't you see i'm walking towards you?? and now i'm gonna bite you! yeahhh!
(the teddy jumped on my shoulder and bit my right ear)
teddy - yummy, taste like chicken..but why this slimy round-shape thing taste like boogers??
me - that's earwax you idiot! arghh! someone please take this thing off me!!

if you guys are interested to join, all you have to do is visit her blog, read the rules, pick a good picture and send your entry before 11.59 pm, May 7 2010 or your participation will be eliminated.

to all my readers, please pray for my success..ahahaha..i want the t-shirt so bad! owh, you should check out the prizes. it's awesome and perfect for someone who can just dreaming of going to the place where Arieza is staying now. haha.

:: Goodbye HTJS - farewell party (Part 2) ::

Salam to all my readers

i'm now officially end my posting session at HTJS yesterday, and some people may say that i should be happy that i don't have to wake up early in the morning just to make sure i punch my card before 8am, but to be truth, it's not that happy. i feel different. i'm happy for that reason but i feel sad to leave all my new-made friends there, and all staffs.

but forget the sorrow for a minute coz that's not my intention of writing this entry in the first place. just before we leave HTJS, we had a grand and out-of-the-box farewell party, organized by all trainees, at Integrated Lab. we've been planning this together since early of April and now, it all a history, literally. yeah, no students had throw such a party before they ended their posting session before this. we are the first batch to do it. i'm sure all the staffs are gonna remember it.



we have collected rm850 (rm35 each) and a very big thank you to all the trainees for your support, you guys are great! although majority of them have more than a month to finish their posting session, but they willing to do this ceremony together with us. we do this all together, save time, save budget and definitely save energy.

~ k. hajar giving souvenir to Pathology Head of Department ~

at first i was so damn nervous, looking all pale coz i was afraid people wouldn't show up at our ceremony. but i was completely wrong and there were some of them who willingly and generously sponsored extra food for the guests. i was like "oh, that's great!" and they were like "no no, it's ok, if it's for the students than we'll be delighted to help". see, HTJS's staffs are good, and kind.

i feel so relieve after seeing one by one staff pass through the main door, walk in to the lab and gather round as Kak Suhana emceeing the ceremony. and the rest is history. i'm sure gonna hold to this memories and will miss you guys so so sooo much. please, don't ever forget me. friends forever! =)

:: Goodbye HTJS Part 1 ::

Salam to all my readers

tomorrow, or today (for those who read my blog 2 hours after this entry is posted) will be my last day posting at Hospital Tuanku Jaafar, Seremban (HTJS), N9. never thought this day would come so fast. it's been a year since my first day here. well, 8 months to be specific, but i feel like home already. leaving HTJS means leaving all the staffs, other trainees, and the smell of the lab. yeah, i think i'm gonna miss the smell. but fortunately all the memories, good or bad, remain with me. that's a good thing for sure.

it's very funny when i think back my very first day here. i never ever like the idea of posting in a hospital actually, coz i thought it's gonna be tough and people are gonna ask you lots of question. the hospital look strange, big and we didn't know a single person here. but after few weeks here, i was totally turnaround. the hospital look small and i know every single person in pathology lab. including the doctors.

before i came here, i don't even know there's other college than have MLT course. i thought the course was only in UiTM. now i know that there's other MLT trainee from other colleges, like IMR, PTPL, KLMU and MSU. now i have friends from those places. really nice to know them. we're like old friends already.


this friday, or today (referring to what time you read my entry), we will be having a farewell party, organized by the trainees. we've been planning the party since early of april and now it's the time to make it happens. i don't know what to expect at the party, i'm afraid i can't hold my tears during the party. huhu. have to say goodbye to some of them, who i'm gonna miss soooo damn much.



to be continued..

:: Judiene is 21 now! ::

Salam to all my reader

"happy birthday to you"
''happy birthday to you"
"happy birthday to Judiene"
"happy birthday to you"

i'm 21 now. 21. it means that i'd lived in this world for 21 years already. and, it also means that 21 years ago, there was a woman, fighting with her own death to give birth to someone name wan muhammad izzuddin, which is me, on the same date as today. thank you so much umi, for all you've done for me. and abah. love both of you.

ok, now lets talk about me. ok, let see. actually, i didn't look like someone who is 21 years old. still thinking as a teenagers. but there's grown-up Judiene somewhere in the middle. hehehe. i can be a little childish, opss, not a little, but very childish. i still got my bantal bucuk with me, and i take it everywhere i go. from home, to college and here, in Seremban. i named it as my best friend.

i don't know how a 21 years-old man suppose to act, or behave. i mean, do i need to be serious? or, do i need to be humor but at the same time serious? naah, i think i should be just Judiene. stupid, a lil crazy, quite emotional and love to eat. oh, speaking bout eat, i'm on my plan to cut down what i eat. i mean, usually i eat a plate of rice, now, i ask for half of the plate, while wishing that that amount can fill my hunger. hehe.

owh ya, for those who spend their time, typing happy birthday messages via facebook and phone, fellow bloggers, friends, old friends, family, thank you so much. really appreciate that. hope you guys still can do the same next year. haha.

ok guys, before i end this entry, lets sing a happy Birthday song to me, shall we??

=)

:: she lights the room ::

Salam to all my readers

it's easy sometimes to just say yes and no to any question been asked to us. but there's a time where we don't know what to answer. confuse. don't know to mark yes box, or no box. at the very moment, we wish we could choose both answers. but it require just one.

silence. thinking bout what to choose.

arghh, still can't make the decision. think think think. still can't. no one around to ask. no one whom i trust to ask. i'm all alone, sitting in a dark, empty, small room. i can only see myself, thanks to a huge spotlight directed at me.


puff, suddenly it all gone. everything seem clear and bright. i can see every single thing around me. i don't know what's wrong with me. it's like i've been hexed or something. in front of me, i see someone. a girl. holding a, ermm, i don't know what it is. but i know that thing she carrying has brighten the room.

i'm happy now.

:: i'm just happy ::

Salam to all my readers

ok this entry is gonna be my self-centered piece of art, coz i'm gonna blabber about something that make me feel like on top of the world. i'm happy, as happy as eating large size of pepperoni pizza all by myself. and with extra cheese, extra pepperoni and extra sauce. owh, and with tabesco sauce on top. owh, really love the feeling! yummy!

but the worst part is, i can't reveal the secret. yeah, it's hard to just keep it to myself. have you ever felt happy about something but you can't tell people about it? wait, maybe i can give you guys clues. you just have to create imagination by using the clues that i'm about to give. hehe. simple.

ok, here's the thing. i planned something, and it went so well that i can't wait to launch the next plan. haha. sure we all be happy if our planning is a succeed, without having any obstruction from anybody. for me, it's like eating Duren Duren from Big Apple. gosh, the smell of the fresh durian flesh is enough to make me drooling. just imagine the satisfaction the moment the durian get into your mouth. damn good!

but i remember one thing. my friend once said that every happiness come with a price. meaning that, if today we embrace the joy and feel like nothing there's nothing can stop us from be happy, be ready to face the opposite. the sorrow days or anything bad might coming in your way. well, used to believe in that. so, i'm trying to not enjoy what i'm feeling right now, although i know it's impossible to do so. haha.

ok, i think that's all for now. until then. cheerio!

:: song of memories ::

Salam to all my readers

i think it's true when people says that a certain song can bring a certain memory or meaning to certain people. i mean whenever you hear this song, its remind you to someone or to a memory that you'll never forget. i never had one, not until i entered matriculation and met some good people there.

i was there for about 1 month and a half coz after that i withdrew from the institution to further my study in UiTM Shah Alam. i still remember, we will study together in our cute cubicle while listening to radio. at that time, Fergie's Big Girls Don't Cry and Gwen Stefani's 4 In The Morning and Beyonce's Irreplaceable was a big hit. i listened to these songs almost everyday there and that is why up till now, flash of memory will come to my mind everytime i listen to these songs. it's like watching my own music video of my memories with the songs as the background music.

~ sorry guys, i only have this picture ;P ~

being there had taught me a lot about life and how to handle myself among strangers, although it just a month and a half. i never thought it would be a nice thing to remember but i was completely wrong. and these songs that i stated above really made it nicer.

ohh one more thing. do you know Backstreet Boys' Chapter One album? they released it back in 2002. i was just entered a hostel world at that time and i remembered bought the album coz i didn't have anything to listen to. i wasn't into mp3 at that time so my dad bought me a walkman instead. every night before i go to sleep, i'll listen to it until it stops. songs like Drowning, Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely and More Than That is my favorite and it'll remind me to my hard times living in hostel with me missing my family every single day.

so yes, i believe that song and memory can go together. it's funny how a song can make someone cry, or smile widely thinking about their memories.